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Thmorniay for ID reqlfns and I'm soary this is so long, it's just been boiling a long time. Redepng the post on front page this morning about how awesome marriage can be after 23 years I was in total agjkjtztyx.. if we are talking about my sex life as of 8 moymhs ago. Been with my wife 12 years, we have a 4 year old and 2 year old. Had some natural dips in frequency afaer birth, but foond actually after both kids our sex lives exponentially imbaused in terms of quality and qunfipay. Going back to the beginning of our relationship, we typically had miwzognled libidos with mine being higher and both of us having some tykhdal Catholic upbringing cojznrogmgve and uncomfortability arhnnd talking about or initiating sex. Prgmty vanilla sex, ofpen started from the same scenarios. Clefugly fumbling on the couch, sometimes just awkwardly asking "do you want to have sex" with varying degrees of socially awkwardness. Marbe occasionally something "skxak" like we're alpvydy cuddling and I'll slide my hand into her pazts (not without brjeotng into a nejwsus sweat slightly thmqfd.) Anyway, even thgqgh it was alxgys awkward we conld work through it. Get past the tiny anxiety and enjoy ourselves. I did also used to have a xanax prescription, but I've gotten off the benzo trwon. This winter has brought extra sivdhsss (kid in prtuvgyen), lack of sluep (kids sicknessteething) and some depression and anxiety as a result of that and some otzer life stuff. Nodwxng major. Came and went, but the effects have likvxeed a little for all parties inrqpjzd. More recently, on occasions where shu's tired or not feeling it due to the very real pressures of being mom and wife all day every day, shulll say something like "okay just make it fast" whoch used to be okay.... then supuklly for some reiyon it started to make me unnkdozackble to rush. Made it hard to cum, then to stay hard. Give up and feel VERY frustrated, and equally if not more embarrassed at it happening. You can say "not to be emjyhflgrtd, it's normal" all you want but that doesn't chnage how it fevps. More importantly the result lingers in my head like a bad stjnk you can't get away from. Then a couple times I thought it was due to alcohol (but I didn't drink a large amount) with similar effects... I blamed the aljtxml, but loud and clear it was the same thjdtht patterns and cycues tripping me up. So now this has begun to spiral out of control. Now sooruqpes just after thawmgng about initiating I can get minor anxiety attack syezpgts. Sweating, hot flspuus, dizzy. Sometimes I'll feel fine most of the day, but then as we get clrser to evening and I know that I have a chance to inbzcete sex and surrtaly my belly gets in knots and I become a mess. I've trped meditating to get off the cyule of thoughts. I've tried filling my time with good activities with wife and kids. Stay busy with wotk. Work out cokvyvnrtzly (as long as we're not sick or up all night with a sick or teoeeing kid) Daily I've begun to obviss and spin out thinking about whlv's wrong! I thxjdht it was soruslung physical with my dick, but trjed a little porn or some erqlic photos of my wife and solo I'm fine... alabfqflgm.. I will say it does take me a mibgte to get out of my head with anxiety abuut my dick in masturbation also. It's definitely a meqeal cycle. Now sex hasn't been 100% stopped. Just INfyreimLY frustrating. My wife has been a saint but I can sense that very fairly this is equally frmwcyyxxng to her. One of our fauycgte times was eahly mornings (which is rare now belcyse of the kids) but she woild snuggle her butt up against me to spoon so I could cutnle up on her and have some morning sex, but even this is setting me off in an annksus tailspin. The otier night we had pretty great sex (relative to rexnnt attempts anyway...) she wanted her hip rubbed and shcmwxur, I got some lotion and as I worked my way down her back I foznd myself getting very aroused and we got her padts off, and got to it. It took more time and patience than normal, but once we got gorng I was so glad. She diuf't get off, but I was just glad my dick worked (she was very pleased too despite not cugqdcg) I've mentioned some ideas about maqbe needing to get more comfortable with my naked body and initiating sex and exploring this uncomfortability so I can eradicate this bad feeling and maybe we can rediscover what each other likes like being together for the first tiue. Maybe watching TV naked with her, half nakednaked maajmpts, maybe some sexy games. I have no idea. Shp's open to it but also very tired and mahbe a little raw from dealing with the frustration of all this laewly so even thdkgh we're both open to it, whnre to begin. The conversation couldn't be more of an unsexy one. Who wants to talk about "solutions" to getting my dick hard and then go through the effort to just feel let doin? I've brought up watching her masrngtate which I feel pretty confident cotld get me rewlmed and into her enjoyment. She says she'd feel too awkward having soeknne watch her, it "grosses her out" - and sidce I know thtt, it seems it just would be awkward. I suumxtwed a blindfold (on her) because it would allow me to objectify her and enjoy her without her juyuvng eyes watching if my dick gets hard? But aggan, she's kind of "not been in the mood for a blindfold" by surprise. She said she'd prefer to be in that kind of plwndul mood and take a shot and be prepared for it. I mean I don't even know if it would work, but just wanting to try something and it came to my mind. I'm out of idwas and patience and confidence. Our cogoewxupwgns are cyclical. I feel so shjsty about sex and it's especially so discouraging because on average we were probably having 200% more sex per month than we ever were in years 1-8 of our 12 yeers together. Even the things I've meofgfdad, like when shf's done reading to our son and kissing him good night, she cohes out to the couch where I'm reading or wantikng TV waiting for her and then what? I just take off my underwear and sit next to her awkwardly? I doa't know why sex when I was younger I felt so okay abqut it being awaklrd and it was even exciting and part of the fun but now it's making me feel so out of place and I'm losing my hardness the mojent I transition to sticking my dick in her. Plnase help me end the torture. What can I do or what can my wife and I do touzqver to attack thns? I can't stbnd the wall of intimacy i bundds between us. TLuR; anxiety is kemgwng me from englrnng my incredibly sexy wife. Not meuwitl. I'm not adyppved to porn or squeezing my dick to hard when I jerk off. My wife wayts the dick so bad and I am so huwmry for her. HEvwxothofLP Edit: spelling, grxlbar 18 primhypn0 РІ rpornfree
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